Glass half full

It's so interesting to see how things cycle in my life. I come here to write for clarity, sanity. It's almost like taking an inventory on my life when so much is going on that I feel overwhelmed. Usually there are a lot of negative feelings, heartache, and frustration. This time I'm doing something different. My life, right now, is so wonderful. I know I am not thanking my lucky stars enough, but I'm going to right now. And I'm going to tell you how I got here.

My beautiful daughter is growing up way too fast. I am so blessed, beyond lucky, to be able to spend at much time with her as I do. She is smart, poetic, funny, expressive, creative, kind, loving, beautiful, silly, and sassy. And perfect.

My friends! Oh I'm so happy in all my friendships right now. I have become selective in letting people get close to me and it has paid off.

My possessions are in harmony with my needs. I don't have too much, and I have everything I need and many things I want, which is absolutely amazing to me. My daughter has everything she needs and then some and she and I are lucky to live in the comfort of a home that is climate controlled, to have running water, and to have full bellies.

School is so wonderful. I'm getting so much out if my courses and making good grades which in and of itself is a whole other level of personal satisfaction.

Next month I will have insurance. Praise God! I may end up living past 30 after all!


So now that I've bombarded you with all this happiness, let me just tell you that I went through a tremendous amount of self doubt and pain to get here. I finally got a clue about people that were hurting me and put a stop to it. I did that by looking to myself and changing my reactions to things. I realized I am in full control of my mood and my life and my SELF, therefore if I want to laugh off a situation that would previously have hurt me, I do it. I don't let things simmer to a boiling point. I apologize freely. I free MYSELF from the burdens of anger, sadness, and regret. I am living in each day...not yesterday or tomorrow. It's something we've all heard we should do, but it is easier said than done. I beg you to try it. Banish that negative thought. Smile at a stranger. Help someone.

In this stressful, unstable society, be your own rock. Know who you are and what you want people to remember you as. Enjoy being a human.